I suffered from OCD. I have tried many ideas, and have got control over it by trying my logic much better, more and more.
I have written it casually, so english wont be fine.
One of the very successful ways is to separation oneself from body, brain and action reaction of body brain. Once logic is understood it is very powerful for OCD and other problems.
OCD Brain is just like sensitive steering gear, which hunts a lot doesn't rest to course. Just like some people have strong hand some weak, some people are white some black, some have grey and some have blonde some have got high gear bike some small gear.
Does anyone cursed his bike? no, we adjust our paddling, power etc, and make best of our bike, what will happen if we stop and curse our bikes? We will not reach our destination for which we have limited time, 80 years.
Body and hormones are also a Kind of Bike we have received from parents/God/Fate whatever. Every soul is on his own journey, we are not competitors, we are co- travelers. But we curse our fate for output of brain chems, we blame our girlfriends, boyfriends, family, boss.
Simply letting the body suffer from hypersensitive brain reactions to words, visuals, and thoughts which are produced as chemicals/ hormones in brains. By not associating oneself with these things is just like feeling the pain of cut.
What does change when we study in library or home? Only visuals, at home I think lot of things, create lot of realities. At library I just study nothing comes in mind. So what is truth? Truth is that it is all illusion. Everything exists in brain as chemicals in reaction to input given by senses while experiencing different atmospheres. So who am I the library man or mental diseased moron at home? I am what I consider myself to be.
I had different reactions to same people or things at different stages of life and I always felt right, just. So what is right and just? as we think it creates reality of right and wrong inside our brain algorithm, something which created unpleasant feeling is stored in brain in box of wrong stuff, which created good feeling is placed in good box, except that there is no reality. Reality is chems stored in brain.
Logic of pigeon/Evolution: Pigeons are most intelligent birds. But they get trapped by associating themselves with their brain, they have no notion of separation of brain and themselves. They rely on notion of hunger based on senses. But evolution has not equipped them with extra wisdom. Our great sons after one million years will laugh on us. What is glory in retarding our-self?
Pigeons to suffer from OCD sometimes, pluck all their feathers. Similar story is bee trap and dragonfly egging on windshield taking it as water.
Chariot: I am rider, senses are my horses, brain is my charioteer and body is my cart and road which I get in way of destination is my fate. If I consider myself to be one with brain, a hypersensitive brain or other brain like dumb will take me where it feels relying on senses and easy path. But not the right path. I have to tell it right path. It may react Oh no no master, its very troubling for you, u cant. I must say hey I am willing to let my chariot get little damaged, but I wish to go on right destination, not that easy destination which takes chariot to precipice. I am willing to let the chariot suffer (Body). A ignorant person will say, oh its rough!! So how do I go? Oh that way ok. He identifies himself with pain of Charioteer. He has no notion of separate existence from charioteer.
Effect of drugs: If drug prozac can change us, make us happy, then why sadness and OCD is my identity? why that is me and not my body?
I can be very intelligent and genius if some drug can increase my serotonin without feeling me drowsy, I can be very smart if some drug can change my hormones which process information inside brain. So who am I ?
I can be very genius if I were raised in a particular atmosphere so why I think of myself as dumb, who am I?
Friends Enemies : Same people are friends and same turn to be enemies, again they turn friends. What is truth?
Someday one needs to say No. I suffered from cleanliness OCD, one day I had to say no. I stopped obeying my brain. There is no glory in suffering longer before coming to wise decision.
Has obeying Charioteer ever led me to destination? No because it is not trained for that, it is just trained for reacting to road and horses (fate and senses). Duty of guiding is mine, by obeying brain I am undermining my government my authority and it will take a while to become confident and defeat arguments of my charioteer, Horses and stop blaming the road.
All those whom we make friends or enemies are with us by fate, they will pass. Such a small time cant justify just or unjust. I was very depressed by my mates many times, during bachelors, masters. But I forgot them. I feel how silly, I was thinking my whole existence was at stake, when I was about to commit suicide when I allowed a guy to disturbed me before exam during second year. Every-time my brain said this is last and right solution, was it? A driver who doesn't know the unknown road of life which nobody knows, nobody has traveled, will always say something, always find some way, wrong way.
Who are my enemies? are not they also riders who have no control of driver? Will they matter after time? No. We react, they react and they use even more brute, cycle of blame continues.
All human relations and more so in case of OCD people have stages, Arguments, friendship, and next realization would be everything except which produce positive publishable applicable results are foolish waste of time. To some this realization occurs in life time, but to most 99% people it doesn't occur. Selfishness is human nature so is love, nobody is selfless or selfish 100%, relations are made to gain or get something, it takes test and time to realize, arguments are based on foolish egos, it takes time to realize.
One wish to change others, but why? where is connection? except for reaction of driver who feels all other drivers are there to share his rent and get him less rent. What business is that mine?
It is better to change than living whole life like fools, we have most of life ahead, If we can give just 5 years properly, life will be different surprising. We got 80 years, wisdom must down before we loose more of chunk. There is no truth in any of negative feelings. Let it bleed your body and pain ur brain. U enjoy ride to destination before it gets dark.
From Mahabharat
Q. What is the greatest wonder?
A.Day after day countless people die. Yet the living wish to live forever. O Lord, what can be a greater wonder?
Plasticity of brain has already proved that everyone can change his brain, brain works on algorithm and iterations, each next step is decided by previous data stored.
So if someone did not get stimulus or is not lucky enough like my aunt who suffered from OCD till now, are they wrong and bad people? No. So If someone gets changed by some help, advice, so who is he? Previous self loathing person or new energetic person with lots of self respect? He is both.
As swami Vivekananda said
Can we ever commit any sin? Impossible!'—such a faith is needed. Such a faith makes men of us, makes gods of us.
Someone may lag by years someone don't have opportunity to change himself, was not exposed to stimulus. If Hindu ideology is to be believed someone may lag few births. So? Are not we all just dice in board of Creator real or imaginary? So many species have passed, million of years, dumb brute animals we were. So why we are ashamed today.
What are pride and guilt, except brains reaction to certain data stored and algorithm which brain use to analyze data, the algorithm we create by our experience like computer program using iterative Numerical methods to solve linear algebra equations.
If under pressure, take three deep breathes and tell your driver: Hey wait, it is going to be easy, keep going as I say.
Separate subjects of Body brain from own subjects as much possible. 10% of actions are responsible for 90% of results, so better to follow those 10%.
Look at great people, they all had same ordinary body with many flaws, and they made use of it. I see PM Modi of India who did not replace corrupt bureaucrats, but is making them work honestly, same with his fellow ministers.
We think worst things have already happened and best things have already passed, this is another illusion, If we just keep us open we will everyday encounter even greater surprises. Just think about all the people who had worse fate but they excelled despite of that, and did better than normal people. Normal people have another disability, that they don't have fire within, they never feel impetus to do extraordinary and loose their comfort.
Before every decision, we should only think what does it hold for future, however torturous the process may be, if it brings strength, well-being then Ok, bitter pills pass like nothing.
Just make a vow to not to blame situations, people ever, life holds many surprises, else one can never ever make progress. Situations never end, they are our part instead we see them in outside. Same with people, one person is replaced by another or same person can be if we continue blaming others, moment we stop blaming, it is over. We move ahead. If we don't we keep blaming and getting reprisals and we are stuck forever.
Greatest
goal in life can’t be job, money, girl etc., it is how good one can control his
brain instead of being controlled by it, mental and physical health.
Fear of doing good also kills creativity, we feel guilty that by doing well we are doing something wrong, so every time we try to be happy some monster stares and says no, and he succeeds. We enjoy victim-hood, watch sun once it is much better and u will never regret.
Keep yourself light, no need to carry burden of hormones whole life.
Let us go beyond self imposed limits, limits of brain and perception and time.
